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|  This is what I want everyone to do. Find Tupacs Dear Mamma. Play it as you read. I dont care who you are. When you read below. I hope my words touch you. Sit back have a drink, smoke, or whatever you do in the time of relaxation. Have your man, or have your woman read this. Its time for us to all reflect. I was Merle Rutledge before I ever was Mack's The Chessmaster. Now read.... The music should be playing.... I hope you make love to that special person and let them know they appreciated.
I havent had a chance to tell anyone this, but many have found out not by my words but my actions. This is my introduction to you. You have met me the flesh of Mack. this is now the soul of Mack. You need them both upfront, honest, and not withholding. I kneel down my knee to you. You are truly my blessing. You are my savior. I was lost and now Im found. God brought you here to save me. To save myself. But who am I if I can not do the same in return. You backed away from yourself. I backed away from being myself. Do we really know each other. Do we? I never wanted anything more but to be a light to your life. I feel even though I brought the light. I hid the darkness underneath. Did I take you too far. You in love. You too k me farther Im beyond love. You open your doors to me. You let me eat. You nutured me. You let me sleep. You took care of me when I was sick and shut in. You saw my weakness. I was a baby in your womb. I wasnt born. Every move you make had my life at your responsibility. Even though you didnt have to. You didnt. But you still was there through the aches and pain. I love you. You couldnt hear me. I kicked and kneed. I pleaded for you to accept me. It was unconditional. It was real. It was beyond measure. Its no way to explain how you feel. You sat in bed when you didnt even have to. I know you wanted to get up. I know you wanted to go back to being what it was before you had me. You had me anyway. You fought back the devil. The devil was being born by you. It had every measure of your emotion that could only be true. You taught me lessons before I could speak for myself. The people in your life taught me the game. Your ears was my ears. I heard everything. I heard how those would bring you the world. They never stayed. They never showed you even the earth. You was about to bring me somewhere. You never been. Maybe you have been. It was just others trying to manipulate their way. You learn the hard way, so did I. I cried at the moments as your tears on your face slide. The pain was unbearable so I kicked. Sorry lady, I didnt have no where else to go. You rub me and let me know I was ok. I didnt know that I would see your face one day. I turned around because I couldnt take anymore. It was acourse me being young, and you felt thats what you was there for. I smiled when you smiled. I know it was rare. I know you rub your stomach. You was always telling me you would be right there. Even when those tried to take me away. You took the shots I couldnt handle at the time. I didnt know why you was laying like me and I found out through time. You love me more than you loved yourself. I was selfish. I apologize I didnt know how that felt. I was getting bigger. You didnt know what to do. You always had these people around making sure you got through. I would find out later .. They would show me the same love. Even through your up and downs. They always stayed around. Who are they? Can you tell me? I see them smile and mean no harm. I see you smile. I kick to tell you to keep them here. They always leave after a while. You sad. Sorry did I make them leave. You rub your stomach and say they here because you here. I didnt know I was that important. You always reminded me. I saw your life. I knew it was hard. I tried to do everything while inside to take your place. You wouldnt let me. Tell me why? You was too young would be your reply. I see this bad person. He always makes you cry. You always still by his side. I kick you to let you know keep him away. It is always your bad day. I'm sorry you have to hold me close to make sure he doesnt get in my way. I'm going to be there soon. Just know I am to protect you. Just keep pushing for me. I know it isnt easy. I have grown bigger. I'm sorry. You still telling me its your fault. Im confused. Just tell me what am I suppose to do. You tell me to look into your eyes. I open up. You are the most beautiful thing. You are a queen. You keep telling me Im a prince. Why? Who am I? What am I to you? You respond. You are my son, prince, and my world! I went through too much to get you here. I look up and say Mamma. You shade a tear and smile. I know I was really what you wanted in your life. I know why Im here. Its to be a real man that others couldnt be while I wasnt here. | | | | |
